A Melanin Momma To Be !
Meet Ashley. 26. First time momma in NYC.
So 8 weeks into motherhood and it has been a beautiful whirlwind of emotions to say the least !
You hear all the forewarnings of how you'll feel about your offspring from seasoned parents, and you sort of understand, even think you can "prepare" yourself for that moment. However you never quite comprehend until you experience it.
And then BOOM. It HITS you.
Your heart is flooded with a monsoon of love the moment you & your baby's eyes lock. The moment you can actually hold the little life that has been bouncing aroundinside your womb.
No word ever spoken can effectively express the joy and gratitude I have experienced since receiving my blessing.
This love is maddening ! I want so desperately to protect and love my daughterperfectly, thatit is indeed overwhelming.
As the days & weeks pass ( & my hormones regulate ) lol, I am able to come up for air andtry to control this intense lioness instinct. Dealing with that and adjusting to my new body post miracle. So many insecurities, as a woman, a mother and girlfriend. So much confusion. Everything is soo new. It's hard.
I know this journey is just beginning and I will not sleep again for the next 18 yrs minimum, the rest of my life will be spent worrying and I'll be exhausted from obsessing over another human being, and I wouldn't trade it for the world, the moon and all the stars.
I'll never let go.