Breastfeeding 101: Le Struggles & Triumphs

Breastfeeding has been the greatest joy & challenge thus far. I'm grateful to be able to nourish my daughters life directly from my body. It's the most instinctual means of nourishment & bonding between mother & child. However it isn't the easiest thing to adjust too. So many tears and hrs spent worrying about whether baby is taking in enough milk. Feeling inadequate and doubting yourself because you are unsure. You don't want to make a single mistake. 

It's painful in the beginning. It takes a toll physically and mentally. Nursing & just learning to raise a child as you go. I've never been so hard on myself. 

We both had to adjust. Adjust to nursing & to one another in general.  

2 months in, & we've come so far ! The reassuring, milk drunk smiles she gives me after feeding has to be the most rewarding thing. It brings me so much joy. In that moment all of my worries diminish.  

I take those smiles as her way of saying, you're doing ok mom, I'm ok. And that is what matters to me most. Since walking into motherhood, I must say I've had tremendous support in my friends & family. There is such a beautiful community in motherhood. It's so vital to moms. It truly does take a village to raise a child up right.

                                                                                                                                        By: Ashley S.



Melanin Momma: Welcome to Motherhood

A Melanin Momma To Be !

Meet Ashley. 26. First time momma in NYC.


So 8 weeks into motherhood and it has been a beautiful whirlwind of emotions to say the least !

You hear all the forewarnings of how you'll feel about your offspring from seasoned parents, and you sort of understand, even think you can "prepare" yourself for that moment. However you never quite comprehend until you experience it.

And then BOOM. It HITS you.

Your heart is flooded with a monsoon of love the moment you & your baby's eyes lock. The moment you can actually hold the little life that has been bouncing aroundinside your womb.

No word ever spoken can effectively express the joy and gratitude I have experienced since receiving my blessing.  

This love is maddening ! I want so desperately to protect and love my daughterperfectly, thatit is indeed overwhelming.

As the days & weeks pass ( & my hormones regulate ) lol, I am able to come up for air andtry to control this intense lioness instinct. Dealing with that and adjusting to my new body post miracle. So many insecurities, as a woman, a mother and girlfriend. So much confusion. Everything is soo new. It's hard.

I know this journey is just beginning and I will not sleep again for the next 18 yrs minimum, the rest of my life will be spent worrying and I'll be exhausted from obsessing over another human being, and I wouldn't trade it for the world, the moon and all the stars.



I'll never let go.  

I'll never let go.